1996

My best friend and I have always laughed and teased about our future.  It started almost the day we met June 1996, I believe.  She moved into the house, we hit it off and were attached at the hip instantly.  If you saw me, she was not far behind, if not literally, with her arms wrapped around me, and vice-versa.  On cold nights (no heaters) she would pad down the hall and snuggle up in my bed with me.  We cooked together, went out for drinks together, spent holidays together....The future seemed obvious.  We would have our lives, get married, out live our husbands and eventually be back to where we started.   Two little witches, living in a big antique house together with our cats and a large garden. 

Today we live about 10 minutes away from each other and spend quite a bit of time together.  Lately, my life has traveled down a path that takes up a lot of my time and I can't help but feel a little guilty in my absence.  I have to remind myself that she has made her a life: 3 kids she loves and a husband (not to mention the in-laws that are almost always there).  I have reached a place in my life where I have to focus on me.  I miss the Saturday nights we used to spend together, but seeing my Sir and sister feels just as important.  She has her life,  I feel like mine is just beginning.  That beginning is something I need to focus on now.  I just wish that I could have it all.  My family and my BFF.  I hope that in time it will all work out. 

I love you Shawna, you really are an amazing person.