Movement

It is strange how lights click on, and illuminate things hidden deep in my soul. Doors shut on (and lock out) bad memories from my past. Pages turn and new adventures begin. My life is definitely not the same today as it was half a year ago.




For so long I have felt as if I was standing still.  Yes, yes I was going through the motions of day to day life.  But my life was not going anywhere.  My best friend was really the only true friend I spent any time with and my family was, and still is, uninvolved for the most part.  But things are changing.  Changing fast.  I met her and her Master in January.  6 months later, i was given my tags.  With that comes the challenge of writing my first contract. I never guessed that i would go from standing still to running.    Has it really been 6 months?  It seems like only a few weeks ago i stepped into my first meeting.  That was the day that i met the 2 people that have become most of my life, my sister and my Sir.   Little things in daily life remind me of them.  Not an hour goes by in the day that they do not cross my mind. 


Everyday something unique comes up:
1) My aunt managed to let it slip to members of my genetic family that I had a boyfriend.  When I called my sister-in-law to wish her a happy birthday, she asked about "my boyfriend."  I stumbled and fumbled, while He listened on, i had no idea how to define Him to my sister-in-law.  Having a boyfriend would open a can of worms, and lead to questions i am just not prepared to answer.  i would never consider Him to be my boyfriend, He is much more than that.  For that matter, my sister is not my girlfriend, she is much more than that.  T/they are my family. (Now, i just have to figure out what i am going to tell my Dad, who now thinks i have a boyfriend.)
2) Sir, sister, and i went out together into the vanilla world.  I have to wonder what people thought when they saw the three of us out "together"?
3) I spent some time with Sir alone and we talked extensively about my past, present, and future. It was odd not having my sister there.  But i know if anything important came up that He feels she should know, he will tell her.


I know that i am very lucky to have found 3 people that take me as i am, scares and scrapes included.